I do not have updates for you, but I will be forgiven when I explain.

At least, I better be forgiven. Anyway... tomorrow I have a "hang out" date with none other than that hot Physics TA I've rambled about the last couple of months. I repeat: Me, Hot Physics TA, date. My soul has been doing cartwheels since last night. It's weird, because I had given up any hope of pursuing something with him, and since I had started an almost-relationship with Andy I had kind of gotten over John (a.k.a. Hot Physics TA). But this past Saturday, for shits and giggles, I added him on Facebook, and to my shock he IMed me about the Orange Chicken stain on my homework (which has it's own backstory I don't feel like getting into). Well, since Saturday we've talked for 5+ hours every day and have obviously hit things off.

But there's always the catch. I'm not sure how far this friendship will go, i.e. that it will blossom into a romantic relationship. Which totally sucks, but he lives in Europe half the year and while talking to him last night it sounds like he finds it hard to maintain a relationship that way. I don't blame him, I can imagine it's pretty hard to have a long distance relationship with someone halfway around the globe.

Then there's my other "relationship" drama. Mah. You know, my ex-boyfriend still wants to get back with me. And he's aware of what I've been doing with Andy (so they are not longer friends and do not talk). I am probably going to see him today to talk about it. I don't want to get back with him, he's a douche. I don't know why he thinks that I'm his soul mate. I can be his friend, but I cannot be his woman again. Plus, I don't want to stop "seeing" Andy. Of course, Andy doesn't seem to care much about me lately as I haven't seen or really talked to him in a week, which sucks because I really like(d) him. How did I get into this mess? When all these problems intercept it's going to be more than I can handle, and I have no idea who I'll lose and what sort of opportunities I'll lose.

Sigh. Join Tidd's Icon Contest that I cannot because I (almost) always win.

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Peace, Sabryna

I am indeed alive.

I know I've... still been neglecting my beloved website. But I had a somewhat valid excuse for the last couple of weeks... two weeks ago was my last week of instruction, and this past week I had finals. So, voila! It's OK that I disappeared.

And then there's my personal life... I was telling one friend about it and she said it was like listening to the plot of The Hills. It is pretty... filled with drama. I'm tempted to write a book or a TV show about it. Holy. Hell. If you'd like to hear about it, I'll edit this post and put it in full story...

Since it is my summer vacation, I will be updating frequently (and with content, too!) until I get a job, since I really have nothing else to do. I've applied several places, but because they are the only places hiring in my area, so have a shit ton of other people. So, we'll see how it works out. I need monies for a car and college desperately.

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Peace, Sabryna